First Day of School Holiday

Today
Is the first day of school holiday
I'm still not very used to it
Accually
I quite prefer to go to school on Monday
I really miss my friends

Tomorrow
Have to go to the hua yue's kem
I hate that lah!!!!!!!
Can I don't go?
But I think can't
Then can I don't go on the third and forth day?
I think can't either
Is so boring going there
And tired
Hate that....

Yesterday
I played SDO until 1.30a.m.
With Tan Woei and Zakuro
So fun
^_^
Hope that I can play with them like that on Sunday,Monday,Tuesday and Wednesday
But I can't
Haiz.....

Chest painning

Since morning when I woke up
My chest started to pain
Until now

Every action I did
I will feel the pain in my chest
When I breath deeply
When I stand up
When I sit down
When I laugh
When I bend my body

The action that won't cause the pain is
Sitting still and not doing anything physically
Doing things mentally are allowed
This is the reason why I act strange when I reached the school
But no one ever notice that I'm strange?
Whatever
It's my businness

SDO...I'm coming!!!!

Just one more day
Just one more day
I need to work hard
I need to wake up early to study
After tomorrow...
I'm free!!!!
Although there are one more paper
^_^

Tomorrow
I planned to wake up 4.45a.m. to study moral
Although moral is more about common sence
But I still need to memorize something
To try to score an A for moral

Gambateh!!!
You can do it!!!!
Just one more day
One more day...

Sejarah

After I done my Sejarah test this morning
I relized something
Sejarah paper that contain essay question is much easier than the Sejarah paper without essay question
I relized that I can gain more marks on essay questions
Essay questions have more idea to let me write
Not like the structer question
If you don't have the answer
Then is ready to go hell

Hope this time I can pass my Sejarah
But I scare my Bio will fail
I wrong quite a number of Bio questions
Haiz....

Tomorrow
Two essays paper to write
I hate to write essay
Need to waste my hand's strength
And my pen ink
Haiz...
But I still have to do it
After two years...
I'm free from this all
So just try to do my best in this two years...

Weekend

I love weekend during exam time
Because weekend have two days free time
I can release my stress
And work hard after the rest
Lovely weekend

I decided not to touch my books today
I want to relax today!!!
Release my stress (do I have stress?)
Tomorrow only start my jorney
But maybe
Later I'll just touch a little
Just a little maybe

Exam

Exam is no longer around the corner
Tomorrow the exam will begin

Exam
I'm sorry
Honestly
I didn't study at all
This is the first time I didn't study for the exam at all
Once I face the book
I will feel sleepy
And sleep in the next second

Last time
This won't happen on me
I can study without feel wanna sleep
But I don't know why now I can't

I feel sorry to
Myself
My teachers
My parents

Sorry
I own you guys a sorry
This mid year exam
I definitely will fail some subjects
Hope I can study harder in the Ogos test

Giving up

Can I give up my studies?
I can't concentrate on my studies
And now
I can't even force myself to face the book
Terrible me
Useless me

Another reason
The weather is so terrible
Made me feel so hot
And Made my sick even worse
So I can't concentrate on my studies

Just now I told my mum
I don't know how I gonna die in the mid term exam
She changed the topic in the next second
I don't know whether She did heard what I said

Anyway
Can I give up my studies?
I can't make it to the end
Suffering

OMG!!!

I'm going to die lo
Saturday and Sunday
Didn't study much

Yesterday
Watch only 3 dics
Biology
Chemistry
Physics

Today
Watch the Sejarah program
Only finish Bab 1
When watching in the half way
I slept =.='''

Oh may god!!!!
How I gonna live
My mid year exam will definitely worse
Maybe will fail few subjects

I hate myself
The weather is too hot
I can't comcentrate on my studies
And somemore I'm sick now

The most important is
Parents will be coming to take our report card next month
What I gonna do?
Anyone have any idea?

Problem appeared!!!

Why???
I can't see my lovely friends blog
But I can see them from my dashboard
Anyone can tell me whats going on?

Or maybe this is God's will
The god knows that
Knows that when I see others blog
My mood will easily affected
So the god refrained me to read others blog

Is this all God's will?
Or my computer get virus?
Anyway
Hope that after the exam
Everything will back to normal

My forth glasses

Before I go to the tuition center
I went to the spectacle shop

Finally
I forth glasses is done
And the uncle said that the lens had just arrived not long ago
Lucky the spectacles can complete fixing by today

When I'm wearing my forth spectacles
I feel like I don't really like it
I'm just like the foster mother of the spectacles
Once I lost my own 'child'
I don't even have the heart to love my adopted child
Sorry
This is not I want
But I really like my previous spectacles

Spectacles
I really miss you
When I go the shop
I didn't see you in the box
Why you hide yourself ?
You are always the one who suits me the best

Stupid rules
You made me abandon my lovely spectacles
I really regret that I changed my spectacles
Hate you!!!!

Back to normal

Start from yesterday
Until today before recess
Everybody said that I'm crazy
Because I'm laughing all the time

Since you guys think that I'm crazy
So I better turn myself back to normal
A laugh less person
And continue do my homework without stopping

Maybe nobody will know I had change
Why?
Because they didn't care about me?
Or other reason?
Whatever
I don't know

Is the time to go back to the past
I think the past is more suitable for me...

Suffering

Haiz
I hate to write Chinese essay
I don't have idea now
How to write?
And we have to pass up tomorrow
The conclusion is...
Die lo...

Although I'm a chinese
But I prefer English more than Chinese
Maybe because of I use English to communicate with my parent since I'm young
But the English I speak is not proper English
Is broken English =.='''

Can anybody help me?
Can I don't pass up the Chinese essay tomorrow?
Although I know the answer is no =.='''
Stupid Chinese essay
Made me crazy

Exam is coming
And I going to die
I still haven start my revision
Too much homework waiting for me to complete
Not I'm the one who doesn't want to revision
Do anyone believe me?
I really wanna study
I don't want to fail my Sejarah again

Useless

Today about 8 to 9 o'clock
I reached CRC
At first
Me,Hooi Ming and Jia Yi
Had planned to swim together at 9.30a.m.
But because of the rain
We had postpone the activity
About 10.15a.m. only we went in the pool

About 11 something
Me and Hooi Ming get up from the pool
And we went back to the dining room
Hooi Ming had walked back to her shop after awhile
So
Left me alone now

From the second Hooi Ming had left
I started to complete my homework
About 3.30p.m. plus
My head started to pain
But I didn't rest
I continued

When 4.45p.m.
I can't stand anymore
I made a call to my parents
They said that they are still in Ipoh
About 5 to 6 o'clock only they will be back
At last
I asked my auntie to fetch me to her house

At my auntie's house
I switched on my cousin's computer and started playing games
I feel sorry to myself
The exam is around the corner
But I still have the mood to play computer games
And played for several hours (one to two hours)

Sorry
I really can't study that time
Maybe is too tired
Or maybe my headache made me can't continue my studies

From now on
I'll worked hard
But not for tomorrow
Tomorrow is mother's day
Just let me free for one day
Can??

Farewell

Why the rules of SMK Hua Lian is so straight?
Because of the school rules
I had break up with my "partner"
The stupid rules
Don't blame be that I'll start hating you from now on

I hate you!!!
I hate you!!!
I hate you!!!

I really love my "partner" very much
Although we just stay together for a day
This is the first pair that I like it so much
And Zakuro said it suit me well too

The stupid rules
Why the rules must be so straight?
The spectacles that had stripes beside is not allow
Rubber band that is made of "telephone wayar" also not allow
This not allow
That not allow
Really a stupid rules

I feel really sorry to the uncle that made my "partner"
He need to reorder the glasses and redo my "partner" again
Sorry,uncle
I had cost so much trouble for you

My forth spectacle
Is brown in colour
I don't care the rules anymore
As long as it doesn't have stripes beside

Everyone know that I'm a rules follower
What the rules asked to do
I'll just follow it
Example
The rules asked not to let the front hair down
So I pin my hair up
From now on
I don't want to follow the rules too much
Not I'm the one who don't want to be a good student
The straight rules are the one made me like that

Farewell
My lovely partner
I'll miss you
You must know
Not I'm the one who abandon you
Is the straight rules made me to

Lack of time

Teachers had gave us alot of homework
This is the reason why I didn't study
Not I'm the one who doesn't want to study
Did anyone know this?

Why my homework can't finish
Even my mom is starting to compare between me and my sister
But accually
Completing my homework is also a way for revision
So I gonna hurry up finish my homework
Then only I can concentrate on my studies

I really don't want to fail my Sejarah again
Not only that
Although it is quite impossible
I also hope that all my results are above 50%
But I'll try my best
To achieve my target

Lazy bung
Go away!!!
Before the crazy bung comes
It is not too late for me to start from now
Although the exam is around the corner

Promise

I had made a deal with myself
This deal will start from tomorrow

The deal is
After I came back from school
And I take my bath
I only own half to one hour time to touch my computer
If wanna touch the computer again
I gonna finish half or three quarter of my homework first

I conldn't be too cruel to myself
If not I'll be crazy because of my own promise
So I still allow myself to online
Example msn and listen to songs while doing my homework

Is it ok?
Will it be too tight
Or too loose
I don't think so
Now the problem is
Do I manage to follow my own rules?

胡思乱想

从星期五开始
不知道为什么就一直在胡思乱想了
想到连功课都做不完了
但幸亏姐姐就在我身边
她救了我
让我压抑住了快疯狂的自己

不知道为什么
就一直在想
会发生的
不会发生的
可能发生的
不可能发生的
任何一样都想过了

在这三天里
上网找人聊天
没人应
没人理我
所以只能静静的度过了这三天

好想找个人把所有事情都说出来
但谁会愿意听我乱吠呢
还是算了吧
自己跟自己说好了
但还有一个方法
那就是
走回前上个月的路

Hope

The Sun

My new hope

Hope I still can make it

Hope that I'm not too late

Is it too late?

If
I had changed my mind
I want to change myself to a positive person again
Is it possible?
Is it too late for it?

In some cases
I'm too late
In facebook
Nor in friendship

Is it possible for me to return to the past?
I think I'm ready for it
To go back to the past
And study hard for the exam

Hate this pain...

Stomach pain
Again...
How suffering
When will this pain leave me alone?

Please...
Please leave me alone
Exam is coming
Gonna work very hard to achieve good results

Need to work very hard
Because I know
I'm worst...