Terible marks

This is the first time I think about this matter
That is....
Taking back the test paper from teachers is so cruel...T.T

Today
4Sc4 get the marks of 3 subjects from teachers
I dare not to see my test paper again
Is so cruel

1)I manage to get a C for my add maths
2)I almost fail my BM
3)I failed my Sejarah

OMG!!!!
I'm really very sad and angry to myself
But i know
I dun have reason to angry or sad about my Sejarah results
I only can blame myself
Why I dun put more effort on Sejarah
Feel sorry to myself
Feel sorry to my parents
I swear I won't fail my Sejarah in the mid year exam!!!

And one more thing
Please dun used me to clam your mother down
Someone say to me happily
yeah...top 10 student in the class also failed in the Sejarah paper
So means that it is diffucuilt
So mom cannot blame me if I failed my Sejarah
Do you know hows my feeling when you guys say such thing in front of me?
I know...
I know i dun have the reason to sad about the results
But please dun hurt me like that...
Is very hurt...

My not pointing on anyone
Just wanna tell my feelings
And dun repeat it
Please....